Laugh....Life IS worth living....

I try so hard every day to smile and laugh as if my life depended on it.  Smiling, even when I don't feel like smiling--so I've been told, boosts certain hormones or receptors in the brain that triggers whatever emotional part of us is needed to help us move from the sad, depressed (or even angry) state to one of peace and contentment.  Smile through the pain.  Then, when I'm not in front of anyone, when I'm "in my closet"--as Marie was--crying my eyes out, feeling as if the world is falling down around me and I'm falling apart right along with it, I can cry and let my true feelings flow.  Like Marie, I put on my smile and pretend that I'm "fine"--that all is well, when inside, I'm wondering how in the world I'm going to survive to the next moment, let alone tomorrow.

I don't know if I have or have ever had post-partum depression as Marie Osmond describes in her book MIGHT AS WELL LAUGH ABOUT IT NOW, but I do know that I have felt exactly as she has felt.  I, too, have gotten in my car and driven away from my home and family with no destination in mind except to GET AWAY.  Like Marie, I have plastered a smile on my face and gone to work, doing what had to be done, only to go home and fall apart in the privacy of my home. 

Marie is a true kindred spirit for me.  I don't know if we have both had the exact same emotional diagnosis, but I do know that I have felt what she has felt; I have been to THAT low, terrible place of wondering if my life is even worth living, but then thinking of my beloved son who needs me; I GET what she writes about. 

But because life IS WORTH LIVING, we "might as well laugh about it now" and enjoy our loved ones while we can....!