We are all two people

Lisa Scottoline's THINK TWICE is one of those novels, like Robert Louis Stevenson's STRANGE CASE OF DR. JEKYLL AND MR. HYDE, is a story about how we all have two sides--the duality of the individual.  It is about how even a good person can become a bad person or even evil if the circumstances are right or if he/she finds him/herself in a situation where it becomes necessity for survival.  It's an interesting
twist to the study of the duality of man where identical twin sisters both resort to horrific means to survive, yet neither can kill the other even though each has an almost insane desire to do so.

I am fascinated by the study of the "duality of man" simply because I have seen it happen; I have even had it happen to me, to a degree--not so much that I became and evil person bent on killing someone, mind you.  But I know what it's like to feel as if someone else has taken control of my being--my soul--and I am completely powerless to stop that side of myself from manifesting itself.  Mine came as a direct result of several tragedies in my life and not dealing with them properly.

Thankfully I never did or said anything that is irreparable, but I did feel so much anger at times that I was concerned that I could get to THAT PLACE.  Unlike Bennie, I never resorted to drugs or carried a gun, thankfully.  But I did carry my anger with me like a spray can that would spurt at anyone at any time without any provocation whatsoever.

I am so thankful that I have found my true self again--that I have control of my soul again, like Bennie.  I did not like being that other person, but when we don't take care of our deepest selves, we open the door wide for THAT PERSON--that other side of ourselves--to be released.  And unlike Dr. Jekyll, we don't need serum to become that other person.